Haha i guess it's betta to update soon.
Been listening to alotta WLH's songs and all, their super soothing and helps alot when i'm in a bad mood.
Anyways yea life's more or less sucks right now haha. Mugging all the way's sian
Though i've been guilty of not doing it at all hee ><"
Mon-Fri night study was something which i looked forward a lot which and thought it was a great opportunity for me to study seriously.
But time and again I was not free or too tired and just could not make it for any of the 5 days ><"
Well a lot has been happening recently and various things have been running through my mind which well distracts me from studying as i really have no mood for it. :/

Firstly, the past week my messengers would DEFINITELY be more than the previous 2 months add together, but i'd say it's worth it to... revive a great friendship i lost.
However i think enough is enough and it's now time for me to concentrate on my studies.
So yeap i putting it aside, and you aside for now. :X
Time is short.
But I've made this choice so yeap, if i regret in the future, i know i MADE this choice and should not be.

Secondly, hmm. how should i put this. Dont know where we are now, dont think it matters to you. Everything is well.. on a line right now and i have no idea how you feel. But wtv, I've thought things through the past week and well everything hurts. To put it in a way i understand, i just dont want to be that friends like when i was friends with ___. Hurts me a lot to be.... Been through it before and it sucks. So if i really have to go through IT again, fuck this but i'm sorry man, it's for the sad better. I think i've given this enough though and i'm sure more than you have. So my mind's rather resolute. For the thousandth time, but now the last, it's the last straw till i don't give a shit anymore. I just want to live the life i once led. You've change, for the better for you in my opinion, but sucks for me. Whatever the case now's not the time, though I did take some time into it, but wth enough. From today onwards just going to concentrate on my studies like how i should have.... Priorities man. So wtv. Fuckit. I've done enough on my part, you i'm not too sure -.-

Lastly, yea well I guess it's time.
To live up to my expectations i think. Miss Kuan, the best and most influential teacher i ever had.
The words you say inspired me to do my best and go into the top class in P6
These words were forever etched in me though i did not perform them.
But now I get it, Soccer player style. Love you ttm for everything man. Hope to see you soon.
I know i can do it, but as someone dear once told me, I'm good, but why am I taking the long way to the goal when i could've taken the shortcut. I once thought it was because i wanted to savor the present moment, to not lose out.
But now i can safely say, there's nothing to lose out anymore. For a long time actually. Surprisingly, it was all done before I entered Sec 1. Hmm ironical.
I once detested that feeling at the top. It was so not me as i felt more comfortable in 5p then 6t. However I got it wrong. Being with 6T, I should've tried my best to match THEIR standard and not take the easier way out. What makes a man is the desires he has and how much he's willing to fight for it. And I can say, i'm not a man. But now i know. I made 2 promises to two very special someones in my life where present or past. All of the same promise and I'm not going to let them down because of the few distractions i have in life. Gonna try my best as my mind's set now, finally. And for miss kuan, These last 2 months shall be the darkest part of my social life, but best part of my emotional well-being. Do I make sense? xD Only to myself perhaps. But I've decided already, took me long enough hehz.

It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.



Hmm life's short there is one life for each of us: Our own.
However i choose to live it is mine and no matter what anyone says i'm proud of it.
The littlest things pisses me off, it's my way of saying it's enough, fuck this no one's gonna push me around.
My fate is in MY hands.
Lastly, I'm just so fucking tired of caring for those who seriously can't be bothered. Friend of foe.
This is why i hated being nice in primary school.
But after that incident i changed, thought it was for the better. But nope it wasn't. As i've come to learn recently.
Being nice is ok i guess, but being over-excessive stinks. Maybe i just can't draw the line on things so why bother in the first place.
Only people who i feel deserve it should know the real me. The list is running shorter but i guess that's better for me...
Risk of getting hurt myself decreases.
I just want to lead a simple life, like i did.
Whoever who complicates it shall fuck off into the selfish world outside and i can't give a fucking shit anymore. why the hell man. -.-
Life's not worth giving a 100% when life's putting you down. Just accept it and start or redirect towards a new one.
I just have to overcome the fear and prospect of maybe a lousier new one. yes.
Loads running through my mind shall not and better not be written.

Whom these are referring only i know, and i'd rather keep it this way hah.
Gonna drop out from the world. Lucky 7 pointers i want you.




This might be my third mistake, but it'll be the most beautiful mistake i make.