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Monday, August 29, 2011
242, my psle score... damn alotta had passed.
Decide to update this awesome blog of mine hoping that no1 patronise it anymore.
Anyways start from results!
SA did ok cept 1 disappointing aspect.
Maths D, Econs E Phy U Chem C
The disappointment is the obvious one... but yea pulled myself together and scored relatively alright for CAs...
Maths A Econs B Phy A Chem A...
Well i guess i should be quite happy with my results my truth be told im just okok bah given the school im in.. :/
Furthermore, it's now more pressurising to score high marks than low marks.
Expectations by teachers.... now that i've met them, 3As and 1 B, I expected to retain them.
Then from classmates and friends, disbelief is most of what i got, followed by taunts and what nots.
Really wanna just rant in their faces, sorry that im working hard, paying attention, doing my work, studying, trying to get somewhere despite my slim chances, sorry that you're so dumb to realise that whatever fun you're having now is short lived and i seriously worry about your future more than you worry about yours. Can't u give a guy some credit at least. Yes, score A liao can talk big cuz you're so dumb to do the same.
That's another reason why i'm somewhat to share my results now... maybe only to those that i feel would get "IT" or maybe ask me.
I've sacrificed a great deal to reach where i've been and i'm still not sure if it's enough given promos is looming ahead. I just don't want to experience that day once again when i received by O lvl cert. To know i can do so much SOO much better, that i have the potential to do so but did not. That has always been my pushing factor all these months and even if i do screw up, i want to at least know i've given it my all in trying to achieve it so i wont regret it anymore. That's something i'm seriously guilty of, not giving my all, 100% where it counts or not. Studies, soccer, r/s, every part of my life; and i decided i should change it starting from my studies. 35 more days get it over and done with...
I've learnt to really mug, you must take away your social life and to take that away would lead to major depression and social awkwardness. But what is one to do hai. 35 more days and it'll be high time to party!! But till then, focuz.
Studies aside, took a breather and went to paramore concert with the gang which i've not been out with for a long time now along with ananta and yanjie. Surprisingly they're nice friendly lame ppl lols. Anyways it was a fresh experience, a new one being part of the "mob". For instance pulling ppl off the floor really made me feel like a hero, furthermore 3 lolz. It's little things like this that makes it more worth it than the music. Had an awesome high time and great time catching up. It's really been awhile since i got together with the usuals but i dare say i expected this to happen when i chose the JC life.
In recent weeks, my fondness for 11s16 have grow exponentially, well in certain cases, despite the growing worry that we might disband. And im not suppose to help them? Are u kidding me? hais. But yeah have made some interesting friends, people who i doubt i'll see in the TK culture which gives me a peek into the "outside" world. And damn was TK awesome.
VICTORIA KATE GOH (Mentioned u le k!) , You ah... don't know what to do with you man and you leave me seriously loss for words at times.
Oh wellz let fate decide on the outcome of our class in 35 days time bah.
I feel like i'm living day by day with no rhyme or reason, no plan or goal except the promos. I'm given a compass but no map to follow. Living each day as if it's the last seems to extreme to explain but then again priorities are set, and i've to look at the big picture i guess....
What's worse? no coke for 30 days... doubt i'll last.
Looking back at where we've come, i'm don't know if i should be disappointed it ended this way or elated we still have sth between us. Then again there's nothing much i can do about it except to hope for the best i guess, but i do think about those times then and again and reminisce them in solitude. Oh well, story of my life, complicated.
Up next are probably 3 people who've either deeply impacted my life or part of it for so long i might seem to have taken it for granted. To huixun, sarah and shawn. Happy birthday in advance hope i manage to make something memorable for each one of you guys.
Hate the feeling where i had so many things to blog about but once i get around doing so, all of it disappears. Oh well, till promos, 35 days, doubt i'll be blogging soon. Maybe shall start a formspring to entertain myself.